Me in Five Years

Dear Friends,

This week on my Diamond call, we looked at where we see ourselves in five years, where we'd like to be. I took this as a good opportunity to create a Clear Mental Image. Following is what I wrote when I considered what I'd say about my life, ideally, five years from now. I have to admit, though, as far as any of the themes in the world of form in this message, who am I to say what's ideal?

I just read in The Power of Positive Thinking (a very SGR book) that an important part of prayer is to be open to God's will beyond our own. Mr. Wattles discusses this when he talks about the man who had a specific business venture planned that fell through at the last minute.

But he was not disappointed. On the contrary, he thanked God that his desire had been overruled, and went steadily on with a grateful mind.
- Chapter 16

(an amazing chapter, by the way, that's been blowing my mind
and answering my questions)

Still, I learned something - or clarified something - about myself and what my Clear Mental Image encompasses. Big thanks to my Diamond community for asking this question, for holding the space to have me create this vision, and for encouraging my writing and asking to read the vision.

So here you go. I love you.

Me, in Five Years

I love my life. I'm grateful for my amazing man who is my true partner on this journey. We laugh a lot.

I have enduring inner peace. It radiates and I am deeply comfortable, relaxed, healthy and guided.

I live a creative life playing music, writing, playing in various visual arts and sharing my creations.

We have a radio show from the road and I write articles for columns and books that are published effortlessly. That is, everything is in the flow.

I live totally by guidance. As does my man. We are guided to travel, create and also be still. We have a home-base in the [Texas] Hill Country and travel the U.S. in our - what else - Airstream. We also travel internationally, often to places we can surf.

We have easy relationships with our friends and families and are committed, always, to opening our hearts, above all else.

Financially we are always taken care of. We have learned to live in the Certain Way and trust the Formless Substance to take care of our every need and desire. We have been playing in the Diamond for five years now and it has been a huge financial and spiritual blessing and we've share it with many, many people in our life. It has contributed greatly to our freedom and we know that it arose for us out of transforming our consciousness and understanding our divinity.

We relish sharing this conversation through the Diamond and other venues.

We are happy with our lives in a very grounded and peaceful way and continue to train in practices like Vipassana which support us in equanimity and non-reaction. In this way we live in love more and more fully and less encumbered by worry or doubt.

We model such things from a quiet beingness and share our guides whenever asked.

Meanwhile we follow our hearts. At home we eat beautiful, wholesome foods and create our art. Our lives are filled with exercise, meditation, community, peace and music.

We have been shown that we exist fully in the arms of the Divine and we are 100% trusting.

Exponential love expands when we come around. It's very, very beautiful and ultimately peaceful. We are blessed.

Sat nam. Truth is [our] identity.

THANK YOU.

Everybody can have what they want . . . it's beautiful!

I saw tonight that everybody can have what they want. That I don't have to cling to something that I think I want when it's not really what I want. What I want is mutual love. Not to knock on the door of someone who's not aligned with me. I want what I want. He wants what he wants. And we can all have it!

I looked up an old fling on FB tonight and saw that he's in a relationship. Okay, to be honest, my stomach kinda flipped. It felt like an ego hit.

I'm grateful to my studies for training me to feel the hit. Open to it. And to realize that who I really am is not changed by such things. In fact that one can actually expand into her beingness from such blows to the ego. But we have to be willing to feel what it feels like to get that expansion.

But if I'm being honest, what I felt -- and the thoughts I thought -- were along the lines of, why couldn't he be in a relationship with me? How could they be in a relationship together? What was wrong with me? Why couldn't he love me? Wha? Wha? Wha?

Even though logically I knew we weren't a match. Did you see the condition of his bathroom?

Heh heh. How's that for justification trying to cover up disappointment?

I'm so tired right now I'm not writing eloquently or really expressing much or tying it into SGR, I don't think.

Here's a major declaration and entry into the Clear Mental Image that I distinguished today.

This is some major shit. We'll get back to it soon. Maybe tomorrow.

Big gratitude for the Universal support and for "Africa Unite" playing on my Pandora station.

I love you.

cc

It's thrilling and sweet and easy and natural.

There is a power which never fails to present opportunity to the advancing personality who is
moving in obedience to law. God cannot help helping you if you act in a certain way. He must do so in order to help himself.

Wallace D. Wattles, The Science of Getting Rich, Chapter 15

I read this chapter this morning in the bathtub before going to meet a friend for breakfast and then going to work. Just reading the words brightened my morning. There is such a vibration about this book. I'm grateful for it in my life.

I feel like going to work is such an opportunity for me to be in the vibration that Mr. Wattles teaches us about. The impression of increase. The advancing personality. It's a joy.

Today I was taking a walk when I got home from work on this gray, chilly December day in Austin, getting fresh air and trees and movement, and I was thinking some woeful thoughts but then reminded myself to say this: I have an amazing man in my life; and I'm so grateful. That's been my mantra lately, and I absolutely love it. I just FEEL good when I say it. It opens up so much room for any man who might naturally step into it, without pressure to any. I dig it!

Also today, I'd thought about posting on-line to see if any friends wanted to come by or meet at a cafe this evening to work so I could get support in doing Artist's Way homework. And then I forgot about it. So this evening I was home and a friend left me a phone message inviting me to go to a cafe in the neighborhood to work. Turned out she then suggested coming to my house -- where I then could hang out in my jammies -- AND she brought me a black bean and guac taco. I got my Artist's Way chapter read and did the exercises in the chapter AND balanced my checkbook. AND got to catch up with my friend.

All this occurred just because I THOUGHT what I wanted to do. I IMPRESSED MY THOUGHTS UPON THE FORMLESS SUBSTANCE by LIVING IN GRATITUDE, with FAITH and PURPOSE.

It's all happening. It's thrilling and sweet and easy and natural. And I'm grateful. And I never quite know how things are going to show up.

Bring it on. I'm ready.

I humbly and gratefully and lovingly thank you,

I.P.

"If God be for us, who can be against us?"

I don't know what I'm doing. Surely there's something in Wattles that would soothe my mood, but I don't know if that's where I want to go. Do I need a snack? Maybe a piece of toast with almond butter on it.

I watched, yesterday, the Universe give me something that I'd specifically asked for: exposure to Rolling Stones music. And not only did I get exposed, but it was extraordinary music. I mean, really the tops. Funny thing was, I made it about the man whose record it was, rather than the general thanking of the Formless Substance.

When I think it's coming from a person, rather than from God, I get attached. And that perpetuates the ache.

I feel like a f-ing fool today. Please, Formless Substance, help me heal my heart and forgive this gentle being who means no harm and only love but who gets confused and driven . . . who knows her actions may not be the optimal or may not look good or may not be what someone else wants, but by God, in her eveahlovin way, they happen.

"If God be for us, who can be against us?"

And is not God always for us? Always? I mean, really. How can it be otherwise?

The toast will be good.